Not what I thought (single group at church 1 year gone)

So me and my sister both "single girls" decided a year ago in October to try out the Singles Way Fellowship at the OS CC. At first we liked it but it wasnt what I thought.

Maybe my expectations were too high. I went in expecting people of all ages and what I got was most people are way older then me 40's or more. In fact I have been to meetings almost every month since we began (skipping Nov & Dec & this year skipping July & Aug) and I have yet to see a lot of people MY age. I am not young I am not old I am inbetween.

Now I didnt go to "find the one" (although I thought it might happen with the first meeting and then I didnt anymore when I came back again 2 months later). I thought it would be fellowshipping with singles out there and seeing what there was to do. But I havent found that yet. I just find people who are older way older then me, most of them girls/gals, and most are single and happy.

I guess that could be my problem. I am single and not happy. I am not content on being single I want to be out there dating I want to be married. I am not okay. I guess also it could be we dont go to church at CCOS anymore we go to another church. Trying to currently connect with others like us at the new church isnt easy. Not a lot of churches have singles groups. It seems so far only CC do and we are not associated with them anymore. Breaking away from them was easy having moved to TN then AZ and not finding any CC love we kinda left them for other churches and found we liked it better. So the SWF here at CCOS is like going to CCOS the teachings we dont agree with.

Doesnt help we both have ADD get bored at the studies and two months ago agreed we mostly come for the free coffee & food after. I dont even get much out of the studies. We also both work in retail part time and since we dont have real jobs its not easy. Top off with I'm not into Christian music anymore and so on...

Dont get me wrong. I want to maybe do some stuff with the group movies, hikes at Joshua Tree, the works. If I had a job and stuff. The lunch in's are nice but we've only been able to afford time & money for one so far and felt kinda like we didnt belong since most again people there are in their 40's and about half have been married before some even have kids.

And we are both in our 30's (sister will be in Dec) and have not dated, married, or divorced or even had kids. Guess we just dont fit it.

Hoping soon we can find a group to fit into that is more like us. At least closer to our age would be nice. Maybe I can finally then get my ability to talk to singles especially guys could be helped if we found more singles like us.

Till next time from single land!
==me==